Oct 16 2013
Like the girl with amnesia in the movie, 50 First Dates, I awake today and press “play” on the videotape in my mind reminding me that I’ve had an accident – I thought I was separate from God – and that I choose today to remember who I am. And I will rewind and play that videotape over and over in my mind, however many times needed, until I awaken from the dream of this world to see that I’ve always been held in the arms of God.
Sep 29 2013
Purpose. Being in purpose. That’s what it is ALL about. Establish purpose, or rather allow purpose to be given, and then just do it. Do what you are told. Join your Father’s Will. Just join. Herein lies all happiness. Become Who you have always been. Remember and be. Let yourself be done through, and shed all concepts about yourself and your world. You don’t need them now. You never needed them. Just join. Just allow. And all else will follow. Extend yourself and Everything will be given to you.
I love you all!
Jutta
Sep 23 2013
These past few weeks have been nothing short of miraculous… there’s been joy, fear, laughter, tears, fury, ease, irritation and gentleness. Overall, I’ve been receiving more love than I could have ever imagined possible, and yet I know there is so much more I am still unable to let flow through and to me. Deep seeded unworthiness keeps coming up for me and it seems so abstract, as does the intense fear that comes with it. There is much forgiveness to be done, but I must take it a step at a time, even though I know I could finish it all in just one seemingly big step. I know I’m making this road longer than it has to be, but I guess it just has to be a little longer for me, so I can get used to this love again and not run from it in fear of being deleted by it from the universe once I let go into it. I fear disappearing, I fear death, I fear the love still because it just seems as if “me” would stop existing and there would be nothing left of me at all.
Sep 17 2013
Many times I’ve asked if we have some music from JP to listen to. A reply to my prayer came through when JP offered an intimate musical evening at the Extension Center.
I felt and I still feel in Love with the gift, which was shared with us that night.
I was overwhelmed by the music and the sounds. My body would not hold still. I had to move. I observed my hands, my head, and my shoulders follow and be followed by the rhythm given by the Holy Spirit. I observed the Present moment, and what I observed was not me. I was searching for myself in all those sounds, and I just found a profound Stillness in the movement. I have been transformed by the sounds just as I am flowing through with the Love of the Holy Spirit.
Sep 7 2013
Every day our vines gives us a passion-fruit to pick, or lilikoi as they say here in Hawaii. It is impossible to start the day with a ‘fear of lack.’ The only thing that could be missing in the mind is the remembrance that it is abundant. The gifts of God are showing us that it is impossible to miss anything. There is Abundance in every moment. We are ready to see this Abundance showing in its many forms!!!!!!
~Catarina
Sep 6 2013
I’ve been praying for a long time to be in service to the Presence, to be in acceptance of what is given every moment and having the willingness to be guided by the Flow of Life. As I am praying, the desire of my Heart is clearly expressed. I didn’t have to do anything to make that happen. I just observed that, at some point, it was Given me to hold the Presence at the Extension Center. I didn’t have any experience. But that was Given by the Holy Spirit! I firstly said, ‘NO’… It was so scary to accept BEING who I really am. It came back to me again and I chose to TRUST and receive what was Offered and to Give FULLY!!!!!
Sep 6 2013
In this community there is no interest in how we define ourselves, because we only want to hold all in Truth; in the Light; in the Present. It’s such a wonderful path of letting go to actually receive the Truth that I Am. I almost can’t believe I am writing these words because I’m only just now poking my head out of this tunnel I feel I’ve been whisked through. All that is being asked of me is to Awaken to my True Greatness; the True Beauty which has none of these future thoughts or self-concepts. It’s a peeling back of the self-identified layers I seem to have wrapped around me so I could feel protected and give myself false meaning. There is an extreme simplicity to the whole process, and dare I say that there is nothing to be afraid of! This letting go of dreams and concepts which the world holds so dear, shifts to an honest embrace of the one purpose we all share. I’m realizing now that I don’t even feel worthy to admit this, but what I truly, honestly, fully, want is to be Happy in the Love of Christ. That is all I want. That is what we all want.
Jul 1 2013
I’ve noticed a desire to understand the metaphysics and concepts from ACIM and David Hoffmeister. Not surprisingly, Ricki, the new steward, asked me to hold an open Course group for the team and community here on Monday nights. She said that this is for me and that I can bring to the group what I need to learn. She encouraged me to share what I am going through, and that it is all for healing the mind. I joined with Peter to see what would be inspiring for the two of us to share. Prayer has been mentioned a lot lately, and as it turned out Peter and I haven’t read The Song of Prayer. Perfect combination. Peter played a couple of clips; one was of David Hoffmeister “What is Prayer and Desire?,” and the other The Song of Prayer Introduction. David explains that a word which is synonymous with prayer is desire. So it flowed that there was a prayer to learn more about desire, or a desire to learn more about prayer. The group immediately launched into a meditative sharing which flowed through the evening. The night was filled with a lovely reverence and remembrance for our true Father. Through the reading of the Song of Prayer I felt a deep shift in my mind, feeling love pour through.
Jun 29 2013
I’m continually amazed at how much I love silence. It feels like the warm sun on the my skin. For the retreat we were in silence for 36 hours. The weekend started out with a reading from the Course, and JP let Spirit flow through him on the keyboard. Jason spoke about how going ‘into the mystic’ is actually becoming aware of our worthiness, and that the two are the same. Feeling our true worthiness IS going ‘into the mystic’. He shared how thoughts about making sure someone is alright or included are actually not helpful because there is no one outside of ourselves to help. The thought that there is someone ‘out there’ who needs to be considered can actually keep us from knowing our worthiness.
Oct 19 2013
‘A ‘Ohe Hana Nui Ke Alu ‘Ia
‘A ‘ohe hana nui ke alu ‘ia – No task is too big when done together by all.
I “stumbled” over this quote today, and it just strikes me as incredibly powerful and true, and so relevant to what we are doing here, what I am doing here. So relevant to my purpose.
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