Jan 16 2014
You Are Not That
Something soft and very nurturing is happening for me right now.
It has felt like there was a period of stirring going on; quite disorientating and part of my mind wanted to judge the experience and tell me that I should do something about intense, ambiguous and very present feelings. Well, I am finding that what I need to do is absolutely nothing. I just let them be. It’s all about not escaping them, because there simply is nothing wrong with any of them! The only discomfort I feel is when I identify with those thoughts and make up a whole story around them – even when I feel feelings such as fear, pain, despair, sorrow and so on, they are not at all uncomfortable in and of themselves!! It’s just the story and the hanging onto them that creates the discomfort!!!
Jan 28 2014
The Mind Is Not My Area
Yesterday I upset myself by putting meaning on a communication event I had with a brother.
Right off, this thought raises a lot of questions. Why am I putting my mind in the past? Who is the “I” (i) who upset himself? Do I really know what occurred in the “communication event”? What meaning did I give it? ACIM has lots to say: “I have given everything I see all the meaning it has for me.” “Judge not.” “Do not see error.” I must have seen error (bad Andy).
Little “i” likes to blame himself, because “Anger always involves projection of separation, which must ultimately be accepted as one’s own responsibility, rather than being blamed on others.” And what I should have done: If I feel the faintest hint of irritation, I should instantly realize that I made an interpretation that is not true, then turn within to my eternal Guide, and let Him judge what my response should be. Yeah, great. But actually trying to do it right didn’t work for me in the moment.